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written. by livesofbirds

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It never snowed last December, but it was always there on the horizon. Like a bad dream on the periphery of my vision, a relentless reminder that I don't ever have control over things the way I think I do. The way I want to. Recently, I realized that I feel everything a bit too sharply. The cold. The pain. The nothingness.

It's heart wrenching. It's stomach twisting.

The minute you were gone, the air in my lungs left too. It's amazing how long you can live without breathing. It's much longer than anyone tends to claim. Truthfully, it's not even the thing I miss anymore. I only miss you. I miss the feelings. I miss anything that isn't the slow crack and settle of this old building. Or the familiar beating of my heart. The sun rising and falling from the sky each and every day.

I don't remember what it's like to not wake up to a pattern, but I do remember that it was so much better than this.

I used to never know what to expect. Now I have no expectations at all. It didn't take me long to figure out which option was better. If I could bring you back – bring it all back – I would, if only for a minute.

For even a second to remember what it felt like to be alive.
I'm out of practice. So here's something short and frivolous.
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Akira-Ninja Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I have loved your work for ages, even "out of practice", you are brilliant.
This one strikes even more of a chord with me, having just had my love of two years walk away from me.
Moved me to tears.
Keep up the beautiful work.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012   Writer
thank you so much. this comment...make my night. you're so very lovely.

(and things get better. i think eventually, when something like that happens. be strong and good luck <3)
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flowersanddreams Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2012
beautiful. I can relate to this.
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flowersanddreams Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2012
beautiful. I can relate to this.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012   Writer
thank you!
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ValynAporia Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2012
The first paragraph in particular really caught me.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012   Writer
thank you.
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edge-of-psychosis Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
this is absolutely perfect. you're amazing<3
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012   Writer
thank you so much <3
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rachel-rhapsody Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2012
my lord. you amaze me sometimes, girl, you really do.
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