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You are a calculated mistake –
something that I've known is wrong from the very start. And I wake up next to you every morning lately, praying that your split lips don't sink me – even though I know it's too late.

You're already taking me under, because, baby –
you're heavy like hurricane. Like a thousand drops of rain pounding down on my shoulder blades. You're seeping into my skin and into my bloodstream. It's only a matter of time until you spread to my heart.

It's too late. I'm already drowning in you.

It's too late, but god, I cannot love you.

You're like the last boy I kissed –
which means I should already be working on forgetting the exact way your fingertips press into my hipbones or how my name sounds curled up in your mouth and the way you like to speak it so careful like a secret – like if you said it too loud, I could get away from you. Like you want to keep me. But mostly I should forget you.

And sometimes, I try, but right now, I'm calculating the exact number of words that would make me stay. That would wash away my carefully controlled emotions and make me forget to forget, because even if I say I don't want you, I do.
I do. I swear.
I do.

Last night you told me we're inevitable –
like the way we're all made of stardust because of a chain reaction that set an entire universe in action.  

You told me that's how big this feeling is and that there are entire oceans living inside of you that you haven't even begun to explore and that all of it – all of you –
could be mine.

If I want it.

Sink or swim –
I'm calling you my relapse, because the last time I felt like this, I almost didn't make it out alive. And right now, I have lungs full of water and I'm sitting on the edge of a coastline that goes on longer than my eyes can see -- so far that it terrifies me --

But we're inevitable.

And you're an entire ocean.

And I'm ready to drown.
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Tehya-Ninawi Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm drowning in this poem. This is just unbelievable.
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peridot-magelette Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012
from the title to the very last line this is mesmerizing.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012   Writer
you're wonderful. thanks!
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peridot-magelette Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
YOU are :glomp:
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thornsandpaper Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
i love your writing :heart: i don't know, your words have this lovely imagery and please. continue writing. :heart:
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2012   Writer
thank you!! I couldn't stop if I tried.
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x0xoX4 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Love it!
I especially love the part where it says, "like the way we're all made of stardust because of a chain reaction that set an entire universe in action."
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2012   Writer
thanks so much!!
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x0xoX4 Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
You are so welcome :D
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xblindalliancex Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2012
Your work is just... Indescribable. Correction. Beautiful, amazing, incredible, breath taking, gorgeous, any of those words could work.
"And right now, I have lungs full of water and I'm sitting on the edge of a coastline that goes on longer than my eyes can see -- so far that it terrifies me" - and that, in my opinion, is the most incredible line of this piece. [:
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