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You remind me of every mistake I was too afraid to make.

I don't know where this leaves me now. This is like standing in front of your living room window and watching all the seasons slip by in the course of a moment. Forever gone in less than a second. I don't know if you've noticed yet, but time simply makes everything seem fleeting until we've already forgotten what we promised we'd never forget. It's funny how selective our memories become. How the past clouds over until it's nearly impossible to distinguish the shapes of the feelings that were once so familiar or the outline of your smile—the sound of your voice. It all fades. Then all that's left is a vague sense of regret for every opportunity that slipped out of my grasp before I even had a good enough hold. It's foolish to believe that if you love something enough to let it go, it'll come back. It won't. Life doesn't really work that way. It's just gone. And now you need to find something new to love. To try to hold on to. For a while at least.  

You remind me that the reasons our hearts beat can also make them break.

We're reckless because we're young. We've let ourselves believe that nothing can hurt as much as what we've already seen—that every piece of ourselves that we give away, we can get back just as easily. But soon, we'll figure out that's not the case. That sometimes falling in love just means bracing for the painful crash. It's not something that will save you. Even when you want it to. And maybe, it's a feeling that could last forever. But some of the time isn't all of the time so every movement, every meeting, every minute is a risk—a chance to take. The next few sentences I say could change the course of my life forever. Or they could not matter since we're all just in love until we're not anymore. These feelings really are only fleeting. i swear it. i promise.

You remind me that things that fit can also fall apart.

There's nothing that keeps you here anymore. Every minute we've spent apart has eroded your edges and broken down your foundation until two things that once completed one another, now have no right to even be next to each other. Our surfaces are uneven. My fingers don't fit in the spaces between yours. We're broken down and broken up. Simply sad imitations of the people we used to be. I barely resemble me. And I certainly don't know you. This is the way people fall apart falling in love. It's such a ridiculous lie and we're all such beautiful liars. So I know I'm being dishonest when I say I don't know what to do without you, what to do when I'm all by myself, how to handle the silence that's settled in between our mismatched edges. Because this isn't true, I just don't know anything anymore--it has nothing to do with you.

You remind me of me and this completely scares me.
i promise i am.
which is why you shouldn't want to know me.
it's why you should have never known me.
it's better this way.
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NightTerrors Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2013
This is...insightful. Very descriptive and insightful. I love it. It conveys love in all it's fleeting glory. Bravo.
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annepam Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011
lovely,, very well said,,
its just how life goes
we build or we break
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011   Writer
this is very true. it's an endless cycle really.

thanks <3
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ceeh Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2011   Writer
For the first time I googled the key words for how I felt...I am the worst person...and here came your piece...I'm the Worst Person I know..."You remind me of me and this completely scares me"...We are far too weak than we know, we don't know that we need that someone to crash us down in order to be able to see clearly of ourselves. "It has nothing to do with you."

Being made getting out of it, we eventually become a hero of our life.
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lachrymose1316 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
this is why you're on my watch list
you're amazing :cuddle:
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011   Writer
awh, you are wonderful. thank you (:
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cconstantine Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Your way of writing is just absolutely amazing.
I will learn from you. :D
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011   Writer
thank you (:
and you're a sweetheart.
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zeii Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2011   Writer
this is... a wonderful, amazing piece. i wanted to tell you that bc i will not +fav it.... there are things from my life that i am finally ok letting go of, by choice. a choice to let go that finally makes me happy... and this piece hits a little too close the person i was... when i thought what i wanted, was to hold on forever. i can't +fav because then i might read it again and feel a slight connection to the feelings that i have left behind.

:shrug:

sorry for that. couldn't help myself ^^;

but i wanted to tell you... i think your writing is beautiful. :aww:

:heart:
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011   Writer
oh. i totally totally understand that and would never want you to be in that position.

but thank you so much <3
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zeii Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2011   Writer
:tighthug:
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THESELDOMSEENKID21 Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2011
This is so beautiful, thanks for sharing (: :love:
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011   Writer
thank YOU! <3
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Wolf-Moon14 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2011  Student Writer
but...I want to know you...and be your friend.
:D Anyway, epic poem!
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011   Writer
haha. i'm glad. thank you (:
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Wolf-Moon14 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011  Student Writer
youre welcome!
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Pinkiesdontswear Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2011
... Wow... ♥
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
thank you! <3
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Willowshine Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
i have no words for this. <3
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2011   Writer
eep! thanks so much (:
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Willowshine Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
it was my pleasure (:
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GuyRex1 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2011
OMG. you made me cry. This is exactly how I've been feeling for a long time now since my relationship ended. It's deeply sad yet harshly true. Congratulations on this one. By all the comments you can tell how you can touch people's most deep emotions. You certainly touched mine. Thank you for posting this. It really puts all these feelings i could never describe into words. You are an outstanding writer.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
thank you so much. you are wonderfully kind <3
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enigma-stigmata Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2011
woooow... im moved.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2011   Writer
hurray! (:
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StickANeedleInMyEye Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011
i didn't want to read this. it's very good... I read it from the bottom up - backwards maybe. :heart:
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
thanks.
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ItsMe-Yo Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Have I told you lately that I love you?

No seriously. You're fantastic.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
i feel similarly about you and you're wonderfully fantastic comments. <3
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Scuria Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
it fucking hurts to say that this fits my situation,
and that this probably fits the situation of a million others,
and that it fits your situation.

but though it hurts -
this is it, this is exactly it.

wow.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
ugh. i'm sorry. i'd love to think nobody else feels this way but i know that's not true. i just...would never wish it on anyone.
i hope things get better for you soon <3
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Scuria Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
(:

i hope things get better for you too! <3
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Lychyan Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011
This is amazingly good. The whole thing is just heartbreaking beautiful, thank you for sharing it
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
thank you.
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Tacskoexe Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Man...this is so beautiful. I don't remember the last time I've read something so touching. I'm not kiding, you are awesome. To grab such deep feeling... I'm stunned. Outstanding work, really. I would say so much more, but my englis is pretty bad, and I'm not that good with words anyway... All I can say that this is beautiful, and seeing people feeling the same things as you...it just feels good. If you are capable to show so deep emotions, you shouldn't be afraid of yourself.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
this comment is absolutely wonderful. thank you so much. i can't even tell you what it means to me. you're lovely (:
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Tacskoexe Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
And I think it's really hard to find so touching piece of work what you made. You are more than welcome! ^^
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nteg8tiondenyd Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011
you know, sometimes (as in pretty much all the time) I talk and well, even criticize how every girl wants to find that "right/perfect" guy. and many, if not all of my points are correct (at least, they sound like it). and I tell myself that i'm not looking because it's not my "end goal." and it is true, but i think that the complete truth is that i'm also scared of what you just described above. i've seen it happen so many times that when i have been in a relationship, i never ever ever gave my heart away.

i'm not sure of what i'm trying to say.

but if you find that you find it hard to smile, just smile anyway.

I promise to smile if you tell me you did :)
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
i understand that. life and love are both awfully large risks. i suppose we can't be afraid of what might happes.

and i do smile. quite often even when it's hard because i know it makes a difference.
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zozanna Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
all your writings evoke memories.
quite simply, perfect. :heart:
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
thank you so so so much <3
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zozanna Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're absolutely welcome, dear. :)
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Ravenwolfe0 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011
i promise i am.-sorry I don't believe this.

which is why you shouldn't want to know me.-sorry but I do want to know you dear friend/acquaintance.

it's why you should have never known me.-no this is why I should know you.

it's better this way.-I would not be better if I had never met you.

I am not the one she writes about. I just offer friendship.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
thank you. you're always so kind. (:
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Ravenwolfe0 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011
you welcome. but i think you are too critical of yourself. :)
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Amirelle124 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
this really remind me of the relationship i am in now. except, i am the only one feeling that way.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
awh. this is probably not a good thing. ):
i hope it gets better.
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Amirelle124 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
lol thank you. I hope it gets better too. :)
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RubyNightseyes Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2011
...Thank you for writing this.
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2011   Writer
eep. absolutely. and thank you for reading it (:
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