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these feelings should be finiteI'm terrified and I know there's nothing unique about this, but I'm standing here completely out of touch with the rest of the world, realizing for the first time that we all feel things a little bit differently, which is why this doesn't hurt for you at all. I figure the only logical reason for how you could do this as if it means nothing was if it really did mean nothing at all for you. It's easier to hate you this way. It's easier to forget you without the burn of your kiss against my skin. It's easier to stay mad if I don't have to remember the way that it felt. Most of all, I can forget this as if it's a memory in someone else's lifetime

i'll keep you like a secret.There are a lot of things I can't tell you.

Not because I'm keeping secrets locked behind my teeth or because I'm afraid I'll say something you don't want to hear. This isn't like the last time or the time before. It's simply because I'll never have the exact right words to explain all the ways you make my heart rise and expand and skip a beat.

There aren't enough words to describe how quickly the blood rushes through my veins when we kiss and I'm on tiptoes to reach your lips and your hand is cupping my face, brushing your thumb across my cheekbone and I feel completely at home.

And they haven't even invented a way to portray how I feel w

it's a quick drive to where we live.I know you don't believe in beautiful things. In fact, I know you don't believe in much of anything. I swear that's okay, because what I'm asking of you isn't meant to be built on blind faith – it isn't meant to be a split second decision. I'll give you the time you need.

Everything is brighter from the passenger seat of your old four door sedan with the black paint chipping off the front bumper, rust eating through the edges and corners of the doors. I've never seen so many shades and tints of green as I have curving around the sides of these country roads with you – too fast, too slow, too here then gone. When you drive fast enou

I collect bad decisions.I don't miss it anymore.

These last few weeks we've learned more about ourselves than we ever hoped to know. We've met the monsters that live under our skin and make our old lives seem distant like memories. Like someone we used to know once upon a time and half forgot. An uncomfortable reminder that the people we've become aren't necessarily the best people we could be.

But, darling, we get by.

You used to always tell me that talk was cheap. Or worthless, even. You told me just because I was still speaking to you didn't mean I was saying a damn thing worth hearing. I mean after all, if you can't say it in a 160 characters, it's not worth

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not everything is beautifulso here's the thing:

you're not you
and i'm not me
and we're not us.

and all i know is that this
is heartbreak in the worse way
since right now
i know i can't have you
but ohdeargod please
i really do want you.

and maybe everything
is a circle so i'll get you
or will be okay since life goes onandonandon
or is about to completely destroy me
or is just...done with. complete. over.

but one thing i know
is that it is november
and i am so so sick
of saying goodbye
to things i love.

but it's true that
everything good
has an ending

and this is mine.

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home is where you are.by ~paperheartsyndrome

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!Rye-Amp-Rater Nov 10, 2012

Totally amazing!!! Thank you and your untouchable face. And thank you for existing in the first place...

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~paperheartsyndrome Nov 25, 2012 Writer

thank you!

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~silentxshadow Jun 2, 2012 Hobbyist Artisan Crafter

Absolutely beautiful. Makes me smile every time, especially since I think I've found that person...

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~paperheartsyndrome Jun 16, 2012 Writer

Thank you so much. I definitely have found my right person after a lot of trial and error.

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~Star46783 Oct 11, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

This is truly beautiful. Not just the way it looks, but the words. It really is a true work of art. Well done.

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~paperheartsyndrome Oct 24, 2011 Writer

thank you! <3

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~Star46783 Oct 26, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

you're welcome!

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~P39 Jun 13, 2011

Lovely words and a nice visual effect. Good work

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~SabethaLamora Jan 2, 2011

A bit hard to read but that was a part of the fun with this I think. :3

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~paperheartsyndrome Jan 3, 2011 Writer

haha. yes. it's a bit of exercise for your mind. (:

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